LAST CALL

"You strengths I can complement,
Your weaknesses I can compensate for,
I do all that I can to make your life better and easier."

That 4 a.m. phone call everyone gets is inevitable.
Sometimes I wonder who is going to make that call for me.
You know someday all us of are going to have someone calling for us.
Telling everyone who cares that we are no longer available for
breakfast, no longer available for lunch, and no longer available for dinner.
I wonder who is going to make that call for me?
Who will care?
Will I make it to heaven?
So many questions, but yet so little time to prepare, to learn.
Each day, every minute, of every hour.
Down to the seconds that go by with each passing moment.
I feel my body weakening, turning on itself.
Every morning I awake to a cold cell.......alone.
I head to the bathroom and look into the mirror,
Deciding which mask to wear for the day.
My mask conceals my true identity......
The scared little boy who is slowly dying inside.
Of course you'll never see him.
For I refuse to let him show.
I refuse to let him be judged and ridiculed, by the ignorance of others.
I allow him to die a peaceful, slow, yet painful death.
Please be understanding its not that I want to keep secrets from you.
But I'm scared......
So I ask one last favor of you.......
Will you please stay with me to enjoy our last kiss,
Dance our last dance,
and sing our last song together.
Then when I take my last breath,
And Tell you how much you mean to me one last time.
That I love you.
Will you hold me tightly in your arms,
Then make that last call?...........


~Miguel Callahan~
9/25/2008